Aryx

Aryx

On Posted on by Aryx to What I Wrote of my Then

2:38 AM

I am starting this on a whim, lets see how it goes. I have thought of starting a blog or a Youtube channel to show and share my ‘life’, ‘creativity’ or whatever. But it has taken me about 6 years, a night i decided not to eat a weed-gummy, a new year sale BlueHost had and my dads credit card (cause i only have $600 in my account and i need to pay for bus fair, a birthday gift, and 3 hangouts i promised to do. I promised i will pay him back ) to get this started. So i’m gonna keep this going for the 3 years i paid for (says my motivated : ‘ new year, new blogger’ motivated self … lets see how long that goes for).

The current main thought in my mind other than this blog are these two candles that I’ve lighten up on my desk . I had couple of candles that I’ve only used a bit, for a while now. For the past two-three days (i know, a long time) I’ve been lighting them in my room at night and… i get it – the candle craze. Although i don’t enjoy perfection, having these candles light in an even way has become a craze for me. I have failed at it but still a craze i’m striving to achieve. Lets see how they turn out in a couple of days.

I write pages and pages of this kinda crap (thoughts that pop up) in my handy dandy journal/diary, so this blog is going to be a version of that. My brain is overthinking right now but it cant put into words what they are, so my body is acting up instead – like charades – fast heart beats, breaths that feel too short and just a feeling of nausea that has been with me for the day (nausea could be cause of of period but a nice add on) i’m gonna stop the writing for now. Gonna go sniff on some candles … toodles..ew..heh